I stopped trusting the man in my Sunday morning mirror
Most people believe that the more time they spend weighing a life-altering decision, the more likely they are to reach a state of objective clarity, but time spent in a loop is rarely progress. We mistake the accumulation of browser tabs for the accumulation of wisdom.
We think we are building a case when we are merely waiting for a mood that agrees with our current level of fear. This is the great deception of the long-term deliberation. It feels like caution. It is actually a stall.
The Bathroom Sanctuary
At on a Sunday morning, the light in the bathroom is soft, filtered through a frosted pane that treats the world with kindness. Tom looks at himself while his hair is still damp from the shower.
He tilts his head, finding the one specific angle where the thinning at his temples seems like a trick of the shadow rather than a retreat of the follicle. In this specific light, with this specific posture, he feels fine. He feels like himself.
The of obsessive research, the saved forum posts, the three different bookmarks for clinics, and the appointment he has tentatively booked for a consultation all seem suddenly hysterical.
He looks at his reflection and decides he has been ridiculous. He doesn’t cancel
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